“The only way I can progress consistently and without limit is to emotionally accept that I am in a condition of error, that only God is the source of Absolute Truth, and that I must generate within me a pure desire to seek for and find His Truth. This is the only path that will set me free. To do this, I must begin to see myself how God sees me, and I must desire from the heart to come to know Him and His Truths. I must become God-reliant. A side benefit of this course of action is that I will also come to know myself completely, and I will place myself in the condition of being able to receive God’s Divine Love consistently. His Love is the only substance that can transform me into a Divine Angel, and it will also create within me untold happiness.
If I am not conscious of the Divine Love entering my soul, and assuming I think I desire it to enter me, then there must be something wrong within myself for this condition to exist. Although I think I desire His Love, I must not have a sincerely motivated pure desire for it. So I must question my self truthfully and openly if I want to move beyond this condition of stagnation in regards to receiving and experiencing my Father’s Love.
I do this by asking myself a few important questions on a daily basis. These are:
What events are currently happening in my life that demonstrate I am out of harmony with God’s Love, and how have I attracted these events to my life?
What emotions within me are triggered by these events and are those emotions in harmony with Truth and Love?
Do I feel any emotional or physical pain? If so, what reasons within my beliefs, emotions, desires or passions could there be for my experiencing this pain?
How do I portray myself to others? Am I being emotionally truthful and open?
Am I still doing things that God or a celestial angel would not do?
How do I really feel inside, and what tools am I using to deny my feelings?
Have all my actions been moral and ethical? If not, what is the emotional cause for my being immoral or unethical?
As most who know me realize, I have a notebook with me most of the time. I then use this notebook to write down things that I notice in my life that are not in harmony with my Father’s Laws of Love, based on my own honest answers to these questions. I then make those subjects a matter for prayer with my Father.
Coming from a condition of sin, sometimes during my progression I have felt physical pain and yet not been able to identify its emotional or spiritual cause. Or I have experienced frustration. During this time I make the subject a matter of intense prayer to my Father, asking Him to demonstrate to me using whatever methods are at His disposal over the next few days what the true cause may be. I then make an effort to take notice of the events and circumstances that happen over the next few days to see what my Father is telling me is the cause of the issue. I am particularly careful to take notice of everything, even those things of what may normally be called minor, since I have found that it is often the instant mental dismissal of something that has been presented to me many times that has been the cause of the stagnation. He is so Merciful and Generous towards me that He keeps on showing me what is wrong within me even when I have repeatedly ignored the issue, and the closer I return to Him the more I remember the consistency of His Love.
I do these things and much more because what I desire the most in my life is to know my Creator intimately. This desire has been with me for as long as I can remember. My relationship with Him is my passion. He is my never-ending love. It is difficult for me to describe in words how intense this desire for God is within me, and I cannot keep from weeping just thinking about it. Every other desire within me is subservient. I realize that I cannot keep coming closer to Him without confronting all and any error within me that keeps me distant from Him, and just as my desire for Him is personal, passionate and real, so too I take personal responsibility for the condition within me that prevents my progression towards Him. While my soul exists, this will forever be the state I seek.
It is not possible to reach God without facing personal truth, without seeing things as they really are within our own personal emotional and spiritual condition. We cannot fake it until we make it, we cannot counterfeit passion for God; it either exists as a real substantial emotional feeling, or it does not exist and needs to be developed and nurtured by coming to know the Divine Truth. We cannot fake a desire for Divine Truth; we either have a passion for knowledge, or we need to be willing to remove the emotions within us that cause us to reject it.
So rather than becoming frustrated with your progression, allow yourselves to re-examine your own feelings, desires, passions and longings, and be totally willing to face the Truth about yourself as God sees you. If you do, you will find that your relationship with Him will forever grow.
This an excerpt from the original document which can be found here http://www.divinetruth.com/PDF/Books/SelfPrint/A4/Qualities%20Of%20Divine%20Truth%20&%20Facing%20Personal%20Truth%20%28A4%29.pdf