“If you look at way, way back in your history as a child how many times were you placed in a situation of shame when somebody found the truth out about you? You wet your pants and your siblings or your parents told people. How did that feel? Shame! So what did you do then? You didn’t want anybody to know anything, did you then? Can you see straight away just that one event and a single event like that’s going to cause shame to be attached to truth? In my heart now I will have a feeling that truth is shameful. Straightaway just from that one experience and can you see in my childhood I might have had 20 or 30 or 50 events. If I have been abused sexually I might have 100, 200 of those experiences of shame connected with truth. Many of us have family shames that were covered up. How many of you have experienced that? Where maybe there was an alcoholic parent or whatever, and we are covering up this shame in the family; these are obviously connections then between shame and truth. Truth becomes a very shameful thing then, so shame will be one of the attributes of truth or one of the emotions that we will need to work through before we will be able to let ourselves seek truth.
Allow yourself to work through the blockages for you seeing your own truth. When you do that Divine Truth about you can enter you, but if you refuse if you block that still, if you keep those blockages there, you are actually placing a barrier, there is actually energetically, emotionally; there is this force field barrier around you. To be frank with you, when I’m speaking with you I can feel it so strongly when people come up to me and say, “Could you tell me the truth about this?” and I’m actually feeling quite the opposite emotion in many cases from you.
What I’m feeling is that you don’t want to know the truth about that particular event at all. Because there is this force field barrier around you of not wanting to be emotionally triggered about what that truth is going to open in you. Allow yourself to discover the blockages that you have to truth about your own life and about yourself entering you. When you do that what will happen is this force field barrier that’s around you, surrounding you, will actually fall away and you will become completely open and vulnerable to truth. Initially that’s going to be a very scary prospect; can you understand why? “That means every single person in my life is going to find out about who I really am. How scary is that? And I will find out about who I really am.” How scary is that? What will happen is we will go through this transition phase of getting out of this state where we are trying to block truth from us, into this state where I’m now allowing truth to enter me no matter how bad it seems. Now that in itself is a transition that occurs in the second sphere. Once I get to this stage where I have released all the emotions of that, I’m now in a state where I’m longing for the truth to enter me. Now I’m in the state that can connect to God almost permanently or close to permanently because now I’m open to God’s Truth also entering me.
Remember you can think of God’s Truth, as the doorway to God’s Love so every time you allow God’s Truth to enter you, you also are now establishing a connection with the Holy Spirit and therefore Divine Love can enter you under those circumstances if you long for it. So prayer for Divine Truth is such an important thing and again remember I’m saying longing or seeking for Divine Truth is prayer for Divine Truth.”
Source: Transcript Relationship With God – Longing for Divine Truth (Section 8.1) http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/241307